September 16, 2009 Wednesday
I have finally seen just how evil, evil can be. I have even seen where I would lie to and try to protect myself from the ones that are trying to help me the most. How could someone ever be so evil? I have come to the end, so I thought, so many times, only to pick up right where I left off and go even farther. I have to change; I have to have real God centered change. If I don’t then all is lost. I have to die to myself in ways I never dreamed possible. But as bad as it seems, there is a part of me that is crying out, “thank you,” for deliverance, for freedom. I can no longer go on the way I have been going on for all these years; all my life. I have to change and start now.