September 17, 2009 Thursday
I have come to the final crossroads in my life and this time I will take the right way instead of my way. My way, my choices, my decisions, has lead me down a road of death, destruction, and anything else that you can think of. I am so sorry for all the damage I have done to other people. I am so sorry for the way I have treated people. I wish I could make it right, but I don’t even know if that is possible now. All I can do now is make things right with God and get delivered of all this mess inside of me. I am so ready to begin the process of healing. I don’t want anyone to ever feel the way I feel right now. There really isn’t a way to describe it. But it is so awful. My guts are being ripped out of me. I know this is the reaping what I have sowed. I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me or pity me. This is my own doing. But I do know that I will not stay this way. I will be made whole. I will be a changed man.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
This is me
September 16, 2009 Wednesday
I have finally seen just how evil, evil can be. I have even seen where I would lie to and try to protect myself from the ones that are trying to help me the most. How could someone ever be so evil? I have come to the end, so I thought, so many times, only to pick up right where I left off and go even farther. I have to change; I have to have real God centered change. If I don’t then all is lost. I have to die to myself in ways I never dreamed possible. But as bad as it seems, there is a part of me that is crying out, “thank you,” for deliverance, for freedom. I can no longer go on the way I have been going on for all these years; all my life. I have to change and start now.
I have finally seen just how evil, evil can be. I have even seen where I would lie to and try to protect myself from the ones that are trying to help me the most. How could someone ever be so evil? I have come to the end, so I thought, so many times, only to pick up right where I left off and go even farther. I have to change; I have to have real God centered change. If I don’t then all is lost. I have to die to myself in ways I never dreamed possible. But as bad as it seems, there is a part of me that is crying out, “thank you,” for deliverance, for freedom. I can no longer go on the way I have been going on for all these years; all my life. I have to change and start now.
This one thing
September 15, 2009 Tuesday
I am discovering a lot about myself. I am seeing how I have been a manipulator, selfish, prideful, and controlling. I know I have talked some about this in the past and folk would say, you are being too hard on yourself. Trust me on this one; I am not being too hard on myself. It is far past the time for me to just come clean and get rid of all that stuff. I am tired of myself. I am tired of all the stuff I have done. I have gone back to the one thing that I know; Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so. Beyond that right now I don’t know anything else. It’s time to change, to start the process of becoming the person God created me to be.
I am discovering a lot about myself. I am seeing how I have been a manipulator, selfish, prideful, and controlling. I know I have talked some about this in the past and folk would say, you are being too hard on yourself. Trust me on this one; I am not being too hard on myself. It is far past the time for me to just come clean and get rid of all that stuff. I am tired of myself. I am tired of all the stuff I have done. I have gone back to the one thing that I know; Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so. Beyond that right now I don’t know anything else. It’s time to change, to start the process of becoming the person God created me to be.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Take a closer look
September 14, 2009 Monday
I talked sometime back about perspective. It’s all in how you look at things. One situation can have many different perspectives. One situation looked at by 10 folk will have 10 different perspectives. Some of the 10 may be similar but they will be different in some way. We look at situations based on our past, our experiences, our mindset, our paradigms. What is bad to one will look good to another. Some of our perspective will be based on our agenda too. It’s so important to look at situations from every possible perspective. But the main perspective has to be the perspective from the best point of view, from the angle that offers the least obstruction. A clear mind and conscious is of the utmost importance to have correct perspective.
I talked sometime back about perspective. It’s all in how you look at things. One situation can have many different perspectives. One situation looked at by 10 folk will have 10 different perspectives. Some of the 10 may be similar but they will be different in some way. We look at situations based on our past, our experiences, our mindset, our paradigms. What is bad to one will look good to another. Some of our perspective will be based on our agenda too. It’s so important to look at situations from every possible perspective. But the main perspective has to be the perspective from the best point of view, from the angle that offers the least obstruction. A clear mind and conscious is of the utmost importance to have correct perspective.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Life is life
September 13, 2009 Sunday
I have said a bunch of times to not give up. A big part of that is that you don’t give up on yourself. It’s one thing that we must keep in mind. However, we do that too often. It is so easy just to say, ‘I can’t do that, I am not good enough, that’s too hard, I am not smart enough, and so on. But the truth is, you are good enough and you have more than enough already inside of you. You are born with everything you need right inside of you. The thing is, has it been growing and maturing inside of you? Or when things go wrong and get tough or not go the way we think they should, we just give up? Remember if doing the right thing was easy, everyone would do it. But the truth is, doing the right thing can and usually is the hardest way and the toughest path to take. Take the path least traveled. Every one of you is awesome! You have what it takes to be great! You can be significant as well as successful!
I have said a bunch of times to not give up. A big part of that is that you don’t give up on yourself. It’s one thing that we must keep in mind. However, we do that too often. It is so easy just to say, ‘I can’t do that, I am not good enough, that’s too hard, I am not smart enough, and so on. But the truth is, you are good enough and you have more than enough already inside of you. You are born with everything you need right inside of you. The thing is, has it been growing and maturing inside of you? Or when things go wrong and get tough or not go the way we think they should, we just give up? Remember if doing the right thing was easy, everyone would do it. But the truth is, doing the right thing can and usually is the hardest way and the toughest path to take. Take the path least traveled. Every one of you is awesome! You have what it takes to be great! You can be significant as well as successful!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
keep on
September 12, 2009 Saturday
After spending time in Jackson this past week I picked up on a couple of things while visiting with folk. The main thing that I got was to never give up. I talked a lot about destiny and purpose with people and the number one thing was to never, ever give up. When things are at their worst is when you are getting close to the answer. I know that there are many people that have questions about their life, their purpose, their destiny. If you keep on course and stay with the plan, you will get the answers to your questions. Whether or not you like the answers I can’t promise, but I promise that your answer is so close. Don’t stop trying, keep on keeping on.
After spending time in Jackson this past week I picked up on a couple of things while visiting with folk. The main thing that I got was to never give up. I talked a lot about destiny and purpose with people and the number one thing was to never, ever give up. When things are at their worst is when you are getting close to the answer. I know that there are many people that have questions about their life, their purpose, their destiny. If you keep on course and stay with the plan, you will get the answers to your questions. Whether or not you like the answers I can’t promise, but I promise that your answer is so close. Don’t stop trying, keep on keeping on.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Believe it
September 11, 2009 Friday
I have been hearing a lot about my sign dream. The best thing was that I am not the only one that dreams about signs. I believe there will be other signs out on 43 too. When you can dream it, you can achieve it, but only if you have the determination to do it. Desire is good, talent is great, but determination to never give is a must. We need people to dream again and then go do it. Not all dreams are nightmares! Dream the impossible dream, because nothing is impossible when you have the determination to back it up. So I believe that Carrie will not only have a sign, but the Aquatic Center too.
I have been hearing a lot about my sign dream. The best thing was that I am not the only one that dreams about signs. I believe there will be other signs out on 43 too. When you can dream it, you can achieve it, but only if you have the determination to do it. Desire is good, talent is great, but determination to never give is a must. We need people to dream again and then go do it. Not all dreams are nightmares! Dream the impossible dream, because nothing is impossible when you have the determination to back it up. So I believe that Carrie will not only have a sign, but the Aquatic Center too.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Remember
September 10, 2009 Thursday
I had a great day yesterday. I went down to Jackson to see my mom. I try to get down here every 6-7 weeks. I used to not like coming to Jackson for a long time, but that has changed. I look forward to coming down now. I enjoy the time with my mom and then seeing friends that I don’t get to see very often. I spent some time at Jackson High School. Was able to go to football practice and spent some time talking to Ken Harbuck, Coach Landon Hilt, Coach Jeff Kelly, and Coach Bob Bumpers and even saw Mrs. Walker in the office. There is something about re-establishing those relationships. It took me 10 years but I do enjoy going home every now and then. It’s a time of refreshing where it used to seem draining. Never forget where you came from. I been seeing, in my mind, two big signs on either side of town; Welcome to Jackson, AL; The hometown of Scott Wimberly, bestselling author, speaker, mentor, and coach. I can see it; even drove down by the Water Treatment Plant and Anderson Bros Dodge, where each sign will be so I could picture what they will look like.
I had a great day yesterday. I went down to Jackson to see my mom. I try to get down here every 6-7 weeks. I used to not like coming to Jackson for a long time, but that has changed. I look forward to coming down now. I enjoy the time with my mom and then seeing friends that I don’t get to see very often. I spent some time at Jackson High School. Was able to go to football practice and spent some time talking to Ken Harbuck, Coach Landon Hilt, Coach Jeff Kelly, and Coach Bob Bumpers and even saw Mrs. Walker in the office. There is something about re-establishing those relationships. It took me 10 years but I do enjoy going home every now and then. It’s a time of refreshing where it used to seem draining. Never forget where you came from. I been seeing, in my mind, two big signs on either side of town; Welcome to Jackson, AL; The hometown of Scott Wimberly, bestselling author, speaker, mentor, and coach. I can see it; even drove down by the Water Treatment Plant and Anderson Bros Dodge, where each sign will be so I could picture what they will look like.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Why ask why
September 9, 2009 Wednesday
I have been asking myself one question lately; “why”? I see more than ever that it isn’t the what, but the why. It isn’t so much what we do but why we do it. Folk can do the same thing, but for different reasons. Some things look ok and even look good when we do them, but when we get to the why, that’s the question. Our motives are the key to the ‘why.’ Why do we do the things that we do? In my case, more times than not I have to answer that question with: selfishness. I am working on that right now. I want love to be my motive. I want humility to be my motive. I want the needs of others to be my motive. I have to learn that it’s ‘not about me.’ It’s about my wife, daughter, and my mom, it’s about you. I am learning the ‘why’ is the most important question in my life right now.
I have been asking myself one question lately; “why”? I see more than ever that it isn’t the what, but the why. It isn’t so much what we do but why we do it. Folk can do the same thing, but for different reasons. Some things look ok and even look good when we do them, but when we get to the why, that’s the question. Our motives are the key to the ‘why.’ Why do we do the things that we do? In my case, more times than not I have to answer that question with: selfishness. I am working on that right now. I want love to be my motive. I want humility to be my motive. I want the needs of others to be my motive. I have to learn that it’s ‘not about me.’ It’s about my wife, daughter, and my mom, it’s about you. I am learning the ‘why’ is the most important question in my life right now.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
yoga
September 8, 2009 Tuesday
I went to my first yoga class Sunday; it was pretty much what I thought it would be like. I liked it a lot and will be going back more often. The reason I wanted to go was for the stretching aspect, but I now see it was more than that. I was carrying all kinds of stress in my shoulders and back. I was more relaxed when we were done. By clearing the stress I was able to get the good muscular stretch that I was looking for. The thing is why we carry all that stress. Probably because life itself is just plain stressful, but does it have to be? Why do we carry all this harmful, muscle tightening stress? It would be so much more comforting and easier on our bodies if we didn’t have all this stress in us. We don’t have to take yoga to get the stress out, even though it’s fun.
I went to my first yoga class Sunday; it was pretty much what I thought it would be like. I liked it a lot and will be going back more often. The reason I wanted to go was for the stretching aspect, but I now see it was more than that. I was carrying all kinds of stress in my shoulders and back. I was more relaxed when we were done. By clearing the stress I was able to get the good muscular stretch that I was looking for. The thing is why we carry all that stress. Probably because life itself is just plain stressful, but does it have to be? Why do we carry all this harmful, muscle tightening stress? It would be so much more comforting and easier on our bodies if we didn’t have all this stress in us. We don’t have to take yoga to get the stress out, even though it’s fun.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Mind clearing
September 7, 2009 Monday
At church the topic of the sermons for some time now has been about discipleship. I am a firm believer in discipleship; which is a form of discipline. It takes discipline to be a disciple. Anyways, the back bone of this whole thing is destiny, purpose, and discipleship. These all work together. The more I write, the book Embrace Your Destiny, Playbook of Champions, and A Walk Through My Mind the more I am seeing the truth of destiny. I have never believed more than I do now that we all have a specific purpose and destiny.
But we all pick up so much baggage along the way that we can’t see our destiny clearly. The only thing that gets rid of the baggage seems to be forgiveness. Forgiving ourselves, forgiving others, and accepting the forgiveness of others are all involved. With forgiveness comes a clearing of the mind; which in turn helps us to see our destiny more clearly.
At church the topic of the sermons for some time now has been about discipleship. I am a firm believer in discipleship; which is a form of discipline. It takes discipline to be a disciple. Anyways, the back bone of this whole thing is destiny, purpose, and discipleship. These all work together. The more I write, the book Embrace Your Destiny, Playbook of Champions, and A Walk Through My Mind the more I am seeing the truth of destiny. I have never believed more than I do now that we all have a specific purpose and destiny.
But we all pick up so much baggage along the way that we can’t see our destiny clearly. The only thing that gets rid of the baggage seems to be forgiveness. Forgiving ourselves, forgiving others, and accepting the forgiveness of others are all involved. With forgiveness comes a clearing of the mind; which in turn helps us to see our destiny more clearly.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
The Dark side
September 6, 2009 Sunday
I was thinking about Star Wars the other day, the dark side of Darth Vader and all that stuff. We all have that dark side inside of us. We all have those things in us that we deal with on a daily basis. In the church we call it the flesh. We all have to deal with the flesh side; some even call it the mental side. Call it what you will; we all have that “area” that we deal with in our lives. When someone else gets it out in the open and actually does expose that area in their life, we are wishing that we could do that, but we don’t. We are quick to judge and slow to forgive when it’s the other person on the stand, but when it’s us… I know that I am guilty of all of the above; however, I am finding the more that I expose about my “dark side” the more light I have. I keep telling myself, ‘Step into the light.”
I was thinking about Star Wars the other day, the dark side of Darth Vader and all that stuff. We all have that dark side inside of us. We all have those things in us that we deal with on a daily basis. In the church we call it the flesh. We all have to deal with the flesh side; some even call it the mental side. Call it what you will; we all have that “area” that we deal with in our lives. When someone else gets it out in the open and actually does expose that area in their life, we are wishing that we could do that, but we don’t. We are quick to judge and slow to forgive when it’s the other person on the stand, but when it’s us… I know that I am guilty of all of the above; however, I am finding the more that I expose about my “dark side” the more light I have. I keep telling myself, ‘Step into the light.”
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Agenda
September 5, 2009 Saturday
How many of us really know without a doubt that we have some very valuable to offer to others? We all have something on the inside of us that we are to share with other folk. Something great and powerful resides inside each of us. The tragedy is that some of us never realize it or never share it with others. It is a tragedy to die with that gift still lying dormant inside of you. Tap into to what was placed in you even before you were born. You are here for a reason, not just yourself; we are here for each other. Lay down your own personal, selfish agenda and look at the big picture. This is the hardest thing for me at times, laying aside my selfishness; for I know that I am a very selfish person, but with God’s help that is ending. What can I do for you? That is my agenda.
How many of us really know without a doubt that we have some very valuable to offer to others? We all have something on the inside of us that we are to share with other folk. Something great and powerful resides inside each of us. The tragedy is that some of us never realize it or never share it with others. It is a tragedy to die with that gift still lying dormant inside of you. Tap into to what was placed in you even before you were born. You are here for a reason, not just yourself; we are here for each other. Lay down your own personal, selfish agenda and look at the big picture. This is the hardest thing for me at times, laying aside my selfishness; for I know that I am a very selfish person, but with God’s help that is ending. What can I do for you? That is my agenda.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Lasting Legacy
September 4, 2009 Friday
I said yesterday that I would not be sending this out to everyone on facebook any longer, but if you want to get it daily, just send me your email and I can email it to you, otherwise, it will be on the group page each day. I will send something out weekly as a reminder on facebook.
I have been thinking awhile about encouragement, people walking their destiny, people’s purpose, and leaving a lasting legacy. I had been questioning how we encourage people. I had lunch with Ben Rodriquez, youth pastor at DFC, yesterday and we talked about this stuff. We wondered how many people are actually operating in their destiny and are aware of it. I said I thought it is 35% are, but only 30% actually know that they are. He felt I was too high and he is more than likely right. Do you know what your dreams are? Do you know what your specific purpose on earth is? Do you know what your destiny entails? Not everybody does, I understand, but wouldn’t it be so awesome if more and more people actually were moving in their destiny, their calling, their purpose, their dreams, and leaving a legacy? I want that so much for my life, my family, and for those around me.
I said yesterday that I would not be sending this out to everyone on facebook any longer, but if you want to get it daily, just send me your email and I can email it to you, otherwise, it will be on the group page each day. I will send something out weekly as a reminder on facebook.
I have been thinking awhile about encouragement, people walking their destiny, people’s purpose, and leaving a lasting legacy. I had been questioning how we encourage people. I had lunch with Ben Rodriquez, youth pastor at DFC, yesterday and we talked about this stuff. We wondered how many people are actually operating in their destiny and are aware of it. I said I thought it is 35% are, but only 30% actually know that they are. He felt I was too high and he is more than likely right. Do you know what your dreams are? Do you know what your specific purpose on earth is? Do you know what your destiny entails? Not everybody does, I understand, but wouldn’t it be so awesome if more and more people actually were moving in their destiny, their calling, their purpose, their dreams, and leaving a legacy? I want that so much for my life, my family, and for those around me.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Encouragement
September 3, 2009 Thursday
How we offer encouragement if we have never been encouraged? How can we offer compassion if we have been had it offered to us? It is one of my desires to offer encouragement to others. I have been encouraged and I know that it is part of my destiny to be an encourager. I see people every day that are in need of encouragement. We all are in need at some time or another, but there are some that are in dire need of a dose of encouragement. Some receive encouragement by spoken word, some by a smile, and some by a pat on the back. People receive in different ways. I am looking at a third book project about encouragement. It is a necessity in today’s world.
How we offer encouragement if we have never been encouraged? How can we offer compassion if we have been had it offered to us? It is one of my desires to offer encouragement to others. I have been encouraged and I know that it is part of my destiny to be an encourager. I see people every day that are in need of encouragement. We all are in need at some time or another, but there are some that are in dire need of a dose of encouragement. Some receive encouragement by spoken word, some by a smile, and some by a pat on the back. People receive in different ways. I am looking at a third book project about encouragement. It is a necessity in today’s world.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Freedom
September 2, 2009 Wednesday
There is a freedom that only comes from being in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing, the right way, for the right reason. That is also my definition of righteous. The Psalmist, Janis Joplin, said that ‘freedom’s just another word, for nothing left to lose,’ which I agree with. It seems like we only reach our righteousness or our freedom when we come to the end of ourselves. When we run out of gimmicks, games, and tricks we run into our destiny and purpose; which brings peace, freedom and righteousness. If only I would die to myself and my desires and start living. I desire the best for my wife, daughter, and us as a family. That will only happen when freedom comes.
There is a freedom that only comes from being in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing, the right way, for the right reason. That is also my definition of righteous. The Psalmist, Janis Joplin, said that ‘freedom’s just another word, for nothing left to lose,’ which I agree with. It seems like we only reach our righteousness or our freedom when we come to the end of ourselves. When we run out of gimmicks, games, and tricks we run into our destiny and purpose; which brings peace, freedom and righteousness. If only I would die to myself and my desires and start living. I desire the best for my wife, daughter, and us as a family. That will only happen when freedom comes.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Living to die
September 1, 2009 Tuesday
Let me correct yesterday, I meant to say that we are all created with a specific reason.
I want to be who I was created to be. However, I keep getting in the way of who I was created to be. I have to know that it’s not about me, but about others, then I wouldn’t get in the way. I have always heard we must die to self and live for Christ and others. But how many of us really die to self? I know I am not doing a good job of that. I keep resuscitating and not dying to self as I should. It is only when we come to end of ourselves to we truly see what dying to self and living for others is all about. I hope that at this time in my life that I have completely died to myself so that I can now truly live.
Let me correct yesterday, I meant to say that we are all created with a specific reason.
I want to be who I was created to be. However, I keep getting in the way of who I was created to be. I have to know that it’s not about me, but about others, then I wouldn’t get in the way. I have always heard we must die to self and live for Christ and others. But how many of us really die to self? I know I am not doing a good job of that. I keep resuscitating and not dying to self as I should. It is only when we come to end of ourselves to we truly see what dying to self and living for others is all about. I hope that at this time in my life that I have completely died to myself so that I can now truly live.
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